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I Dont CareI don't want to care
To be numb to it all is all I desire
What good does it do
When you never get what you deserve in return
I cry for others, yet others don't cry for me
Life is purposeless little game
And I'm the puppet with my fate held by strings
We're all just a bunch fools creating false purposes for ourselves
People fight to live in order to wait for death
Death waits for us all, lurking around the corner
So, what's the point in fighting?
My Last First KissFallIng slowly
Because I want thee
Words could never amount
Take my sinking ship and save me
For the sea is not so free
Ive been waiting for forever
Just a drop of hope
A change in the weather
Those lips, i cannot miss
So, can you be my last first kiss?
Silent SoulsWhisper in the darkness until my heart fades to black
Whisper through the silence; uncover the sanity that I lack
Louder these voices echo throughout my seemingly empty skull
Though, they soothe me for the moment
Yet distract me when my heart becomes so full
It still remains impossible to love past my heart's content
I've connected with countless souls
Though I still dont know what they meant
FatherlessEight years of your drama
You're a worthless leech
Sucking the life from this no longer existent family
And as I sit on the icy floor of our garage,
The flashbacks of my traumatic childhood taunt me
Here we go again
Another empty beer bottle
You're back for me huh?
Let me tell you something.
When I was small..
I honestly believed you could replace my father
But, then again...
People say I should be careful what I wish for.
They were right
You're just like him, and I despise that.
Ignorance is BlissIgnorance is bliss
The lies I miss
While the unknown remains unheard of
Not knowing what pain will be foretold
Keeps a false joy to persist
I'm standing in this spectrum of colors
When I really should laying in a lovely shade of grey
I am afraid of a colorless life of living
Therefore the hidden pain holds in a form of glee
Tell me whats real; I lose hope
Tell me what I want to hear; A cracked smile
And Coat the truth with a hint of sweetness ; While I figure out what I should believe
Never give upI once knew a girl, who chased the stars
The tiny specks of color in a colorless night
She reached for the sky, and held onto nothing
Except hope slipping through her fingers
So, She looked up at the moon and cried
Drowning out everything that mattered
One day, she saw a shooting star
One that outshined everything she had ever seen
Then its brilliance faded.
Seconds turn to minutes,and days turn to months
Dissapointment ripped at her soul
The rain left her cold, and still she smiled
She Believed the star would one day shine again
And she still believes.
Even if it means..I dont know if he loves me
I dont know if he still cares.
but if this is what is best
I'll do it.
Even if it means crying all night
Even if it means hurting
Even if it means no sleep
Even if it means holding his sweatshirt while i try to sleep
Even if it means heartbreak
Even if it means losing my sanity
Even if it means losing him
Even if it means no one to talk to
Even if it means looking at everything and randomly crying because it reminds you of him
Even if it means I'll feel stupid and ugly
Even if it means losing hope
Even if it means confusion
Even if it means loneliness
Even if it means watching him with another fuckin girl
Even if it means pain
Even if it means loss of breath
Even if it means haunting memories
Even if it means regret
Even if it means Listening to sappy love songs because they make me feel better
Even if it means losing him
Even if it means anger
Even if it means not eating just because ive lost apetite for the world
Even if it means looking at our dogtags and
StupidityHe wore a baggy onyx colored sweatshirt
And his hair was worn lengthy and a dirty sand color
I can't believe that I never noticed his eyes until the moment I forced him away
Those eyes keep me awake and..
Sleeplessy I have tossed and turned for a countless number of nights crying
I won't forget that one rainy day.
He offered me his umbrella, and I obliviously rejected him..
To this day, I drown in my own regrets.
Imperfectly I walked away denying every sentimental feeling I had
And perfectly he put on a mask of smiles.
It's funny how the tables have turned..
I've grown addicted
Addicted to his scent
And now, I sit here angry at my own imperfections.
The reason I'm not good enough for him
When I kiss those lipsWhen I kiss those lips, I taste yours
Denying every sentimental recollection of our past
One year ago, and I can still feel you now
You see me, but why don't you love the view?
Your tragic icy eyes contrast with the apothic trench within
And soaked in your love to mine
I will never forget those passionate lips; so mellow and pleasing
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