FatherlessEight years of your drama
You're a worthless leech
Sucking the life from this no longer existent family
And as I sit on the icy floor of our garage,
The flashbacks of my traumatic childhood taunt me
Here we go again
Another empty beer bottle
You're back for me huh?
Let me tell you something.
When I was small..
I honestly believed you could replace my father
But, then again...
People say I should be careful what I wish for.
They were right
You're just like him, and I despise that.
Ignorance is BlissIgnorance is bliss
The lies I miss
While the unknown remains unheard of
Not knowing what pain will be foretold
Keeps a false joy to persist
I'm standing in this spectrum of colors
When I really should laying in a lovely shade of grey
I am afraid of a colorless life of living
Therefore the hidden pain holds in a form of glee
Tell me whats real; I lose hope
Tell me what I want to hear; A cracked smile
And Coat the truth with a hint of sweetness ; While I figure out what I should believe
Never give upI once knew a girl, who chased the stars
The tiny specks of color in a colorless night
She reached for the sky, and held onto nothing
Except hope slipping through her fingers
So, She looked up at the moon and cried
Drowning out everything that mattered
One day, she saw a shooting star
One that outshined everything she had ever seen
Then its brilliance faded.
Seconds turn to minutes,and days turn to months
Dissapointment ripped at her soul
The rain left her cold, and still she smiled
She Believed the star would one day shine again
And she still believes.
Even if it means..I dont know if he loves me
I dont know if he still cares.
but if this is what is best
I'll do it.
Even if it means crying all night
Even if it means hurting
Even if it means no sleep
Even if it means holding his sweatshirt while i try to sleep
Even if it means heartbreak
Even if it means losing my sanity
Even if it means losing him
Even if it means no one to talk to
Even if it means looking at everything and randomly crying because it reminds you of him
Even if it means I'll feel stupid and ugly
Even if it means losing hope
Even if it means confusion
Even if it means loneliness
Even if it means watching him with another fuckin girl
Even if it means pain
Even if it means loss of breath
Even if it means haunting memories
Even if it means regret
Even if it means Listening to sappy love songs because they make me feel better
Even if it means losing him
Even if it means anger
Even if it means not eating just because ive lost apetite for the world
Even if it means looking at our dogtags and
StupidityHe wore a baggy onyx colored sweatshirt
And his hair was worn lengthy and a dirty sand color
I can't believe that I never noticed his eyes until the moment I forced him away
Those eyes keep me awake and..
Sleeplessy I have tossed and turned for a countless number of nights crying
I won't forget that one rainy day.
He offered me his umbrella, and I obliviously rejected him..
To this day, I drown in my own regrets.
Imperfectly I walked away denying every sentimental feeling I had
And perfectly he put on a mask of smiles.
It's funny how the tables have turned..
I've grown addicted
Addicted to his scent
And now, I sit here angry at my own imperfections.
The reason I'm not good enough for him
When I kiss those lipsWhen I kiss those lips, I taste yours
Denying every sentimental recollection of our past
One year ago, and I can still feel you now
You see me, but why don't you love the view?
Your tragic icy eyes contrast with the apothic trench within
And soaked in your love to mine
I will never forget those passionate lips; so mellow and pleasing
I took a short glance at him, making sure he didn't see me looking. During that tiny peek i realized how shiny his hair looks when the sunlight hits it, and how much his eyes glisten when he stares at the chalkboard during class.
"Maxine!" roared the teacher. She seemed quite angry by the way she looked at me and by the tone of her voice. I stood up knocking down all my books and hiding every bit of embarrassment with a laugh. I didn't hide it very well by the looks of the students faces and the quiet chuckles in the background, but it works for me. I'm not the only clumsy one of the family. My mom is probably the closest to being like me. I've heard so many embarrassing stories from her, its almost like we're both clones of each other, but my sister plays sports like a pro, while as for me i couldn't play if my life depended on it
I swear i saw "him" snickering behind a wide open book that's right in front of him but seems completely untouched, but then again I thought I saw h
LullabyeHold me close, Hold me tight
Everything will be okay, everything will be alright
Look me in the eyes, and hear my cries
You are the one thing I need
Like a drug addicting and sweet
Make my heart thump, make it beat
Hear the music, dance along
With you nothing will ever go wrong
Give me tickles down my spine
Everything will be just fine
Feel my lips with yours
And tell me you love me
Then, Look me in the eyes with yours
Tell me your fears
Baby, no more tears
I'll be here
There's nothing to fear
Honey, Honey, Catch me when I fall
I want to feel your pain
I'll be there through it all
And make it through the hardest obstacles
Baby, don't you cry
Listen to our hearts beating in harmony
Together and Forever
Just kiss me under the stars
Or even in the pouring rain
Without you I would go insane
But, Baby, remember..
I'll be there, no more tears
I'll be here, there's nothing to fear