Even if it means..

I dont know if he loves me
I dont know if he still cares.
but if this is what is best
I'll do it.
Even if it means crying all night
Even if it means hurting
Even if it means no sleep
Even if it means holding his sweatshirt while i try to sleep
Even if it means heartbreak
Even if it means losing my sanity
Even if it means losing him
Even if it means no one to talk to
Even if it means looking at everything and randomly crying because it reminds you of him
Even if it means I'll feel stupid and ugly
Even if it means losing hope
Even if it means confusion
Even if it means loneliness
Even if it means watching him with another fuckin girl
Even if it means pain
Even if it means loss of breath
Even if it means haunting memories
Even if it means regret
Even if it means Listening to sappy love songs because they make me feel better
Even if it means losing him
Even if it means anger
Even if it means not eating just because ive lost apetite for the world
Even if it means looking at our dogtags and wondering if everything said on them is still true
Even if it means not wanting to know because your too scared the truth will hurt
Even if it means thinking about what could've been and what should've been or what would've been
Even if it means knowing he's happy without you
Even if it mean frustration with yourself

I'll do whatever as long as your happy..